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Testimony for the Glory of Jesus Christ!
The definition of Loraine was and is MUSIC! Now it resides in Heaven from which it came.
You are receiving this e-mail because the Lord commanded me to send to everyone on Christian Listings or anyone who sends me an e-mail that implies their own struggle or requests. He is telling me that is my current mission now. WOW! There are so many contacts. Thank you for reading the story the Lord wrote for my life. This is ALL ABOUT JESUS CHRIST!
I have claimed this verse because it confirms what He has told me and I have told you throughout this testimony.
John 11:4 - But when Jesus heard {this,} He said, "This sickness is not to end in death, but for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified by it."
As I was knit in the womb, the Lord was with me. My mama had surgery to remove a goiter and was 6-8 weeks pregnant with me. When I was born everything look pretty good. As I grew up, we discovered that my skeleton had some problems with stunting and bone miss alignments. I had chronic dislocating knee caps and from 1st grade had worn a cast on the left leg from hip to ankle at least once every single year of my grade school. Finally they gave up on try to fix the problems.
When I was 10 years old my father molested me. I was so very traumatized by this event. I hid it in my heart for many years. I was never good at handling stress and this life of mine is full of it. I had many health issues as I grew up. I am sure that without the Lord at my side I would have gone crazy at an early age.
Our family (Mom and my sisters) were practicing Catholics. I did 1st communion, Confirmation, the works! I always knew that the Lord was with me.
I got into High School and loved it! I found a place where I truly belonged. I played Bb Clarinet (Concert Mistress), Tenor Sax, and piano really GOOD! I started singing when I was in 3rd grade and piano in 1st grade and clarinet in 4th grade. My only problem was memorizing music. I could never do that from the time I started music. But I loved music so much! My whole personality was infused with music. I was music.
I was born in Yuba City, CA and went to school in Robbins, CA from 1st through 6th grade and 7th & 8th in Tudor, CA. I had a very hard time in grade school with constant teasing from my classmates and my 5th/6th grade teacher. When I went to Tudor to Central Gaither School, there was a teacher, Mr. Don Graham, who somehow renewed my spirit and my sanity. In my freshman year our family moved to Yuba City, CA. I went to the same high school, Yuba City High School that my mom and dad went to as well. My Mom was driving mentally challenged students for the school district.
I LOVED HIGH SCHOOL. I was in was Concert Band, Marching Band, Pep Band, Womens Choir, Acapella Choir, Chamber Choir, and was student teach piano in my hone and at the Junior High School with Chris Estabrook. I LOVED HIGH SCHOOL. I started teaching piano lessons my sophomore year of High School. It was my plan to teach music as a career. I did some Drama, and loved it. Music was my life. When we moved to Yuba City, a friend of my Dads loaned me a baby grand piano. WOW! It was so wonderful to play on for 4 years.
My senior year of high school, I graduated mid-term because I had too many units. I was teaching piano lessons and student conducting at the Jr. High. My High School Choir Teacher and his wife became very good friends. Dean had me as his assistant for the high school choir and Chris, his wife, was coaching me on piano and voice, and assisting with the Jr. Hi Choir. So even though I had graduated early, I was still very involved with the high school and Jr. Hi during the last semester of the school year.
In May 1976 our High School Choir annually went on tour to the South Bay from Orinda to San Jose. I was conducting and singing solos for the tour. The night before, I got up very ill. Mom called Dean and said that I should not go. He said if Loraine doesn't go, we don't go. So he told my mom that I could ride with him in his car that he also took in case of any emergency. Mom usually insisted that I ride the bus, because that was the safest place. On our way, Dean was testing me and was convinced that I had perfect pitch and I did! About 1 1/2 hours down the road, the school bus took an exit before the Benecia Bridge, and we followed. The bus driver told Dean that he needed to stop some place to get motor oil and that it was low. As we drove back onto the bridge, the next exit had a place to get oil. The Shell Oil Plant was the only thing out there at time.
Dean and I were in front of the bus in his car. I heard a great crash and turned around the see the bus flip in mid air and fall 30 ft below the exit. As we approached the stop sign at the bottom of the exit, Dean asked if I could drive. I told him yes. I took the car while he ran to the bus to help my friends. I drove only 1/2 mile to find a small driveway that went up a slight hill. I parked the car, went into the office and told them that my high school choir's bus just fell off the exit from the top. That office was the Shell Oil Administration office. They push the panic buttons. The emergency workers thought that accident was at Shell.
I called my Mom knowing that she would be home at 11:04 am from her bus run. I told her that the bus had tipped over and she said she would come and get me. I lost consciousness at the point. I was transferred to the Shell Oil Hospital after they got permission from my Mom to treat me. Remember I had the car (with all the permission slips for the students in the trunk at the Shell Oil Administration Office). Since Dean did not know where I went or the trouble I was in, the police had issued an APB on me trying to find me. I was 17 years old.
Mom drove to the high school, told them about the accident, and picked up my sister Lyndia. She made that trip in 45 minutes; it normally takes about 1 ¼ hours. They had the bridge closed to traffic as they tried to rescue the students. When Mom told them who and where I was, they sent a police officer to find me. The officer's name was Cross.
I remember being freezing cold and later learned that they had packed my in ice to try to get a blood pressure reading. I was in advanced stages of shock. When they finally got a reading they released me to Officer Cross. They were hunting for the car with the slips, and he took the keys with him. They had sent mom on the long way around to get to me so they could a statement from me before Mom arrived.
When she arrived with my sister, we were all put in a police car and taken to the Armory where everyone was sent to find out if their child was alive and in what hospital or they were confirmed dead.
I sat there wondering if I could live with this for the rest of my life. I was about to decide to let the shock take me. Then someone showed up that went to High School with me by the name of Bob Allen. He was stationed over at the Alameda Military Station. He nearly ran right for me. We hugged and then we talked for a long time. He assured me that everything would work out in the future and not to give up. My mom saw him, my sister saw him. He nearly punched out a reporter that had been hounding me. I tried about a year later to find him to thank him for saving my sanity that day. When I finally found his mother in Yuba City, she thought I was a prank call. Allen has died in 1996 in a car accident at the base. My only conclusion can be that the Lord himself or sent an angel to me via a person I would listen to. There were many priests and ministers there, but only Bob Allen finally got through to me.
We drove back and forth from Yuba City to Alameda, Oakland, San Francisco or to any hospital where my friends where in it seems like for several weeks. On one occasion I visited a freshman boy that had been in a coma since the accident. When I spoke to Gary, he responded for the first time and started coming out of the coma. Gary was left with massive brain damage as a result. His mother called me an angel for waking her son up. There were many miracles that day and the following days. Since I was an aid to the High School Choir I pretty much felt like their mother hen. They were all my kids too. Two of my piano students were killed that day as well. I dont have much memory of that summer. Doctors say that I probably never will remember. The Lord keeps things from our minds sometimes to protect us.
Mom moved down to San Jose in the same apartment building that I was in. In 1981 we decided to move in together and living as room mates with independent lives. Well somehow the Lord created a relationship like none other between a mother and a daughter. I worked for General Electric and did some temporary work in the area. In 1980 I had a major Kidney repair done to fix a blocked tube (tube from kidney to bladder) that was closed. My kidney was 6x the normal size. They remove the tube from the kidney, closed that area, cut the tube below the blockage and replaced the tube at the bottom of the kidney. I had UTIs for 8-9 years constantly. All of a sudden in about 1988-1989 they discovered that my left kidney had doubled in size and the right kidney had just shut down. I spent 21 days in the hospital after the surgery. Even then, the Lord was right there with me. Usually you would need blood for this operation. I did not need any blood. This is the time period was the blood with contaminated with AIDS and nobody knew. PRAISE THE LORD!
Many years later in the 1990s I got a call from the Fire Chief of Benicia, CA. He told me that that accident happened on his first day as a fireman. He told me that it changed his whole life because of that day. The Lord works in mysterious ways AMEN!
In the late 1970s until mid-1980s I had been dating a wonderful man, Barry Binge. A Giant Teddy Bear! We had plans to marry, but I found out his life was a lie and mystery with contacts to the mob. I had given my heart to the man and would never love another. He broke my heart and was the only man I ever loved and still love. He took my heart and broken into pieces. I still feel the void today. The Lord filled my heart with His love which sealed up the most of the void. But I will always love him. I pray that he is now a Christian and we can reunite on the other side. He stocked me for many years. Eventually he lost track of me. In 2004 in March, I got a call from him again. I told him that I had forgiven him for the deceptions and the stocking. He wanted to stay in touch and I told him no. With my illness I do not need any more stresses to deal with. The Lord told me to stay away from him. I am concerned that he found me again, but the Lord assured me that he will not come from CA to CO to see me again. The Lord is so faithful in every situation.
In the mid 80's we left the Catholic Church and started with an Assemblies of God Church. Both of us were baptized in water at the church. As we moved from different areas in the south bay, we changed churches several times. One church that we attended gave us an incredible foundation in the Word and in Jesus Christ. We lost that pastor to cancer which devastated that church.
Before the accident I had been awarded a full scholarship at San Jose State University (my mentors alma mater). So I moved to San Jose in August of 1976. I started college and started getting sick. Blood Pressure not stable, immune problems. So I quit school in 1978 and went to work full time. I was the very first freshman to be in the Chamber Choir at the college.
1981 my Dad left my Mom while she had been down with me during the kidney repair surgery. When my mom went home back to Yuba City, he was gone. Told her, he wanted a divorce. Mom and I were both devastated. (My Dad started having health & mental problems in the 80's as well after the accident). In 1981 Mom and I move into a townhouse together (saving money that way) and tried to keep our lives separate but somehow we started doing everything together. In 1985 I started working for Apple Computer in Cupertino; CA. Mom started a year later in a different department at Apple. In 1991 after 5 years, I was given a 6 week Sabbatical. We took a 3 weeks of vacation going to Florida to cruise and then MA to visit friends and then to Boston to visit more friends. We had a blast. I was finally starting to feel better. I started as an Area Associate (secretary), moved to Database Analyst and had a conflict with the manager and became very stressful (and I forgiven her for the struggle she gave me), and then become a Support Analyst in the IS&T Department. I had great managers in the department, but the job was stressful. I finally got policies and procedures documented that kept my beeper from going off all night. I had a great time in this job. I was sorry that the stress was impacting my physical body. They arranged to get me a huge severance package and we moved north to the Santa Rosa, CA area.
In the 1980's I had 9 surgeries (3 knee, 2 kidney, 1 tonsils, 3 D&Cs) in the space of 6 years. The first surgery was the tonsils, and I got very sick from that one. Then in 1980 the 1st kidney surgery was to try to remove the blockage in the tube manually. No luck, it was closed never open. The next kidney surgery was to fix the blockage, by removing the tube from the kidney, clip it, and then re-attach it to the bottom of the kidney. In 19983 the next surgery was the first knee surgery where they reconstructed ligaments, muscles and bones and pinned the tibia bone to the knee joint. I had a case from hip to toe and could not life it by myself for 6 months. Our church was so wonderful sending people every afternoon to sit with me and help me to the bathroom and any other needs since I was in bed for the full 6 months. Then I had therapy on that kneed for the next 1 ½ years. The 2nd knee surgery was to remove the pin since my immune system was destroying the bone around the pin. Im allergic to stainless steel. Now one is allergic to stainless steel. The 3rd knee surgery was another lateral release on the knee since it still wasnt working well. During the 1980 I was loosing a lot of blood menstruating and they tried to help with 3 D&Cs. Well finally I was cured of endometriosis from the anesthesia (A miracle to doctors). I caught some kind of virus that hit my kidneys. It started in the good one and then move to the dead one. The neurologist told me that this super virus should have hitched a ride on the nerves of the kidney and go directly to the brain stem. He had 3 patients that week die from the same super virus. The good kidney suffered no damage and the bad kidney lost a lot of the nerves from the virus.
Then in 1990, my blood pressure became dangerously unstable and my health was failing.
In Sept of 1990 we moved north to Rohnert Park, in the Santa Rosa area. We found a wonderful bible church there and became good friends with the Pastor and his wife. I went back to work about 3 months later in Santa Rosa, full time as a secretary. I worked until 1994 and everything started going wrong with me again and given a wheelchair to use. In August 1994 I was put on permanent disability at the age of 36. I am a Type A Driver. We started a small home based Travel Agency selling cruises and tours. We did pretty well. Cruised a lot, and I love cruising.
After 3 years in Rohnert Park we moved to Sebastopol in the midst of Redwood trees. If I had to stay home, it was a great place to stay. In Aug of 1994 I was put on permanent disability. That was really devastating for both of us. I got 2 dogs to help with my home alone problem, Danny and Sadie. Wonderful gifts from the Lord, as they were both given to me for no cost. I really did rescue them both, They were both needing a good home.
I began singing more and more in church, for church and convention events. My last event was signing for 800 women for 4 weekends as the featured soloist. This is what I wanted to do. This was the last time I sang in public.
I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Syndrome (PTS) in 1995, not mentally, since the Lord has taken all that, but not physically. In 1976 they didn't know about PTS.
In 1996 I got very sick and skin turned gray because I did not have enough energy to run all the body functions. In 1996 I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Syndrome (PST) Fibromyalgia (FMS) and in the advanced stages with progressive nerve damage and loss (and a bunch of other physical problems to go with it). Took some time to get the right meds and almost died 3 times that year. In 1997 I decided to stop doing everything that made my tired (which was everything, from household things, music to driving). I stopped it all. Well things improved a bit after 1 year on the meds. We started really selling cruise in 1997 through 2000.
Mom and I sold tours and cruises from our house. We did pretty well. We took about 13 cruises between 1994 and 2000. I was always in a wheelchair when we traveled. We had a blast. My immune system was not very bad at this time, so we took the chance to fly and cruise. I never got sick from someone on these trips. We had so much fun the two of us with me in my wheelchair. We have been to Alaska, Victoria, Vancouver, Hubbard Glacier, Glacier Bay, Juneau, Ketchikan, and a few more cities in Alaska I can't think of right now, Ft. Lauderdale, Miami, Haiti, St. Thomas, St. John, San Juan, Acapulco, Panama Canal, Puerto Viarta?, Costa Rica, Curacao, Aruba, Charleston, SC, New York City twice, Williamsburg, VA, Albany, NY, Boston, MA, Bermuda, Portland ME, Quebec and Montréal, St. Lawrence River, Las Vegas, Yellowstone Park, Idaho, Fort Brag, Solvang, Los Angeles, Hearst Castle, Yosemite, Las Vegas, Phoenix, Yosemite and many more places. The Lord was so wonderful to allow us to travel so much to so many places before both of us got really sick. We would talk about Jesus to everyone we met during out trips. They seem to be drawn to us. I know that the Light of Jesus is what they were drawn to.
Then I discover what PTS does to the body. I was in shock so bad the brain had sent a message to the core of every cell, the message DIE! This body had been trying to die since I was 17 years old. In 1997 I could finally function and try to do something to help. The Lord and I started at the toes, and He and I changed every cell right to the top of head with a new message; LIVE! However, a lot of damage had been done along the way. By end of 2000, I was wheelchair bound and mostly house bound.
My dad died of Alzheimers at the age of 62. I still believe that his illness is a result of the accident.
Then because of Mold and cost of living in Sonoma County, in 1999, we decided we needed to move, but to where? To make a long story short, Uncle Corky - Mom's brother in San Leandro, came to Hotchkiss, CO every year to hunt for 37 years. He always called in October and told us he was back, and did we want to move to CO. We are 5 generations Northern Californians. No Way! However, in 1999, we said yes. In January we flew to Montrose, chose the lot, and chose the carpets, floor coverings, countertops, lights in less than 2 days. Only made a few mistakes we are still trying to fix.
In March of 2000 I lost my first Home alone dog, Danny from cancer of the spleen. He was 11 years old. I had been my companion for five years. My female, Sadie was so grieved we almost lost her. Now Danny loved to ride, but Sadie didnt. In April 2000 we moved to Montrose, CO on the western slope of the Rockies, 1150 miles. The move almost ruined us both and Sadie.
After 2 months in our new house, I put the chair in the garage. I have not used it in the house until 2003. The disease is still progressing, just bought back about 3 years of disability. So energy is a daily issue for me. We got a new member of the family, a Westie, Mackie from San Francisco (breeder didnt know what tot do with him, so I rescued him).
We stopped selling travel when we moved to CO. We started selling Avon in May 2000 and sold until September 2003. We made Honor Society our 1st two years and then Presidents Club our 3rd year. Now I get to talk on the phone a lot! I never let any one go away without a least part of my testimony. There is a lot more that I didn't include even in this document, and would probably fill a book. Now if I didn't have this disease, people would not listen to my testimony. When a talk with customers and I tell them I don't drive, and they ask why? That allows me to tell my short testimony. It doesn't matter who, where, or how. I would love to be able to shout it from the mountain tops if I could. Our time is growing short, I and mourn for those who refuse to believe. I can only plant the seeds. It's the Spirits job to do rest.
We lost my Sadie girl in January of 2003 from complete kidney failure. A month later I got a new Tibetan Terrier to help my grief of her named Drako and he is a wonderful Tibetan Terrier from Casper WY, He was 10 months old and I rescued him too.. So now we have Mackie and Drako, both very young and very healthy dogs, and both of them I rescued from terrible homes. They love each other very much and love to play to together. It is so much fun to watch them.
By September of 2003 both of us, our health started to get much worse. JESUS CHRIST IS ALIVE TODAY IN ME, and stands right next to me every day and gives me the energy I need to get through every day.
I have not been able to do any of my music for almost 7 years now. I really miss it! Breaks my heart, but Jesus Christ has promised that when He heals me, He will restore it all and even more. I would love for Him to heal me to completely restore me physically. He has told me, Not yet I quit asking why when I discovered the definition of why is confusion. I'm not confused. I know that I will be healed either here or there. If it's there, then I will be able to do so more there than I ever had here. I want to do so much for Him and explore His incredible creation of the universe. I had a lot a talent that came straight from heaven its just on hold for while. I always knew that it came out of Heaven from Him the creator of all things.
I should be dead by all doctor accounts. I take medicine that would put a horse in a coma to keep me alive. I live one day at time, some days, a breath at a time. My Mom has been my care giver since 1993 and I can't thank the Lord enough for what He does for us. Spelling is hard; math is hard, memory, what memory? This body does not know how to make energy, so I live with His. When I am weak, He is strong. My greatest desire is the hope in the Bless Hope, the Rapture of the church. From this body that He keeps going miraculously, to the new one He has made just for me. In less than a blink of eye, I will have a restored body that will let me give Him all the music I ever wanted to do from Him and more.
I recently found a cassette tape of my recordings with 90 minutes of songs. This is like a treasure to me. I had forgotten that I had made this in 1994. I am now looking for someone local who can copy the cassette to a CD so that I can keep this for a long time.
There is so much more to my story. It would take a book to tell it all. I look forward to telling it over and over again in Heaven to show how My Savior saved me and kept me. Since then He has saved most of my CA family now too. I can hardly wait to see what He has waiting for all of us!
UPDATE 2003:
In 2002 December Mom got really sick. We learned in February 2003 that she was sick with Pulmonary Fibrosis and Inflammation of the Lungs. She is on full time Oxygen and taking a bunch of meds. She has always taken care of me and now she needs as much help as I do. We have aids that help with things 3-4 times a week now. Eventually we will need more.
In November 2003 I am now full time wheelchair bound again. Both of my knees are gone. My FMS is getting worse and the meds are not working very well. As we increase the drugs it becomes more dangerous for me. I trust fully in the Lord every day. I am in deficit energy again. We are no longer able to do the Avon business and I turned it over to another representative.
When I am in deficit energy I can audibly hear the Lord. He talks to me through my heart and head and directly into my spirit. He does not have a vocal tone or anything like that. I just know its Him talking to me. He promises me that He will be with me all the time. He tells what is waiting for me in Heaven. He told me that I will play not only the instruments I know but all the heavenly instruments. I will write music for HIM and then all of Heaven will hear. He told me I will teach the young ones to play. He told me that I would RUN to the Orchestra area of Heaven as soon as I arrive, right after we meet face to face. He also told me that still I can not imagine what He has waiting for me. On the really bad days, He always reminds what is waiting for me. What a faithful Lord He is to us.
Doctor is telling me that I have one foot here and one foot in Heaven now. Doctors now say that the Lord is putting 02 in blood, since in 6000 ft you can not have 99% 02 and I often do. I am now using sugar for all my energy now internal and external. I have a very LOW metabolic rate the Doctor says. I am now on the max dose of the top try-cyclic drug for depression for chronic pain. The Lord is so very faithful and has told me there are legions of angles around our house protecting us from Satan and his clan.
I have many prayer chains clear across the country going most of the time now. I don't think I could get through a day without them I would ask that you add us both to your local church as well. I have a specific prayer request at the bottom of this testimony. I can't attend church or go any where people are anymore because of the compromised immune system now. Doctors don't think they can fix anything now. I know in my heart of hearts that He will sustain me for the Blessed Event He has planned for HIS BRIDE.
I never tell my story for sympathy, but for the Glory of Jesus Christ! It is I in Him, and He in me that keeps me here!
I can't tell you in words HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM! Words are not adequate. I chase after the Crowns from the Lord to throw at His feet when I arrive. I can not find words that can say thank you.
UPDATE January 2004:
I am now taking the maximum dose of Nortiptyline and it is finally kicking in. I am sleeping a little better. We have also changed the ointment used for my Psoriasis using a MUCH STRONGER medication and it is all clearing up everywhere. My knees are still not working well. 3 days ago I do believe that my right knee took a trip around the knee, at least that how it feels. The nurses that visit weekly are really amazed. I do believe that the Lord is giving me additional time and energy to help bring more and more people to the Lord through this testimony of His Grace and Love.
UPDATE February 2004:
Mom needs open heart surgery to replace a valve. As of this time there is no surgeon who will do the surgery because of her lungs. Her aorta valve is only open about a dime size now, letting in 30% of the blood into her heart now. She will be doing less and less each day. New tests show she is holding her own right now. We have been told that the recovery from this valve replacement is very hard. Mom and I think we are just too tired to deal with that and will let the Lord decide the number of our days.
I am not doing well with the new dose of meds. I am extremely tired. It is very hard to get a blood pressure or pulse reading now. I am now taking two controlled drugs for pain and stress management. I have an aid come in 3 times a week to bathe me and a nurse twice a month to take vitals and health and emotional updates. We were hoping that my body temperature would rise with the added meds, but it still stay in the 95◦ to 96◦ degree range. I must have one foot here on earth and one foot in Heaven. I am having audible conversations with Him again.
My doctor does not know which one of us will go home first. My dream is at the same time, but the Lord did not assure of that event. The doctor now thinks that I have never had stage 4 sleep for most of my life. Only the Lord Himself could have kept me here until this time.
I asked the Lord directly why He did not heal me here. My Lord spoke to me and clearly said My child your illness is your mission. Now how can you feel bad when He tells you something like that! I know how very faithful He is with me day by day. I can hardly wait to see what He has waiting for me. I only argued with Him a little about this.
We are being helped by social services and hope to be in touch with Hospice so that we can stay at home until the Lord takes us home. Our mortgage has reduced so that now either one of us could afford to stay if one goes before the other.
UPDATE MARCH 22, 2004:
Update on Mom: Doctors have told Mom that she has a 60% chance of surviving open heart surgery and 60% of coming off the respirator in 2-6 weeks after surgery. It will take at 1 year from her to feel like she feels today. We have decided with prayer and family and friends, that she will not do the surgery. The Lord has already counted our day before the foundations of the world formed. He remains ever faithful and I trust with Him for both of us. If she goes first, the Lord will provide the help I need and remain in the house. I know that I will see her again very very soon. I remain trusting the Lord for all provisions. Remember us in your prayers.
Update on Me. I am in deficit energy for good now. I have a massive bladder infection which means the dead kidney is dumping junk into the bladder. Temperature rise to 97.9, only when I have an infection does my temperature go that high. I drink enough Vitamin C a day to over power any of those bad bacteria. So the leaking junk is the probable reason for this. To day is the first day in two weeks that the pain is less and my temperature has gone back down to 95.4 which is normal for me. I am having esophageal spasms which feel like a heart attack at least once a week. They think this is due to damage in my esophagus from all the years of heart burn. I am now taking Valuim 10-15 mg a day as maintenance (now that's 2 controlled substances). My menstrual cycle is now 60-70 days and only 2 days long. Now this is really weird for me. My hope is that the ovaries are dying and the whole system will just stop. The Lord has the power to do this sooner than later. My depression is getting better as I learn to trust Him more completely every day for our provisions. We both have defined our quality of life as very low. It is only by the power of prayer and the faithfulness of the Lord that keeps us going one day or one hour at a time. I am having problems with my ankles and feet now. They think because of the bad knees.
This month a lot of money has gone for medicines, co-pays, and medical insurances. We are not strapped for money. The Lord has provided well for us, but high cost things get done very slowly in a month like March and April. We have these about once every quarter when checking account goes into the line of credit, which we dont like to do.
BIG PROJECT ALMOST DONE! Praise the Lord!
We plan on moving our living space from the family room on the west side of the house to the living room/dining room on the east side. The sun is brutal here on the west side of the house in the summer. We will make the family room the computer room leaving everything except the two recliners in this room.
We will install a new DirectTV connection ($69.00 cost) in the living room on April 6, then move the two recliners into the living room. We moved the TV console from the bedroom to the living room since bed is no longer an option for me. Mom likes to stay in the room with me when I sleep, so she sleeps in the recliner too. Now in the living room, with the couch she can choose to stretch out on the couch too.
We would like to add a ceiling fan in Living Room soon; cost is unknown at this time.
We will insert the window air condition in the front window and plant trees in front to block the view from the street. This is saving us much money not having to change out the side window to functional.
This project is almost done now. My Aunt and Uncle came on March 31 and got the move started. We should have everything done by April 6 2004. The Lord is so very faithful meeting all our needs.
The yard will be covered with soaker hoses to water the yard easily. I can just turn on the faucet and water our beautiful yard. We have people who are willing to lay out the hoses throughout the yard sometime in May. We cant do much since at this altitude, we can have a freeze until May 10. So we can not lay out hoses until then. We plan to plant move fast growing Poplars along the back fence. We will then have trees on the North, and West side of the house. These trees are full grown in 3 years. They are so beautiful with so much green. We also have many Irises planted in several areas which make our yard really beautiful with all the color. The Lord is faithful in providing us help when we need it.
Since May 3 2004 we have had a nice rain every day to water our spouting plants. The Lord is so faithful in keep us going each and every day.
Below is the medical history of my current treatments and difficulties.
I can no longer have surgery of any kind, leave the house, do any of my music and live with a low quality of life. My only joy comes from the Savior Jesus Christ. Without His love, grace, salvation, hope, love, talks, hugs
. I would not get through any day.
HOME CARE
2 times a month a nurse comes to take vitals and record physical and mental health.
3x per week an aide gives me a bath and helps with hair, nails, ointment application, shaving, dressing.
MEDICATIONS Taking at 3 PM each day Treatment for:
Nortiptyline; 75 MG, 1 Capsule Depression
Lisinopril; 20 MG, 1 tablet Blood Pressure
Hydrocodone/Acetaminophen; 5-500 mg (Vidodin) 1 tablet Pain Management Controlled Substance
Diazepam, 5 mg Mylan (Valium) 1 tablet Muscle relaxant Controlled Substance
Etodolac ER; 400mg, 1 tablet Inflammation Management
MEDICATIONS Taking at 2 AM each day Dosage Treatment for:
Nortiptyline; 75 MG, 1 Capsule Depression
Hydrocodone/Acetaminophen; 5-500 mg (Vidodin) 1 tablet Pain Management Controlled Substance
Diazepam, 5 mg Mylan (Valium) 1 tablet Muscle relaxant Controlled Substance
Etodolac ER; 400mg, 1 tablet Inflammation Management
MEDICATIONS Taken as Needed
Nyst-Hydro-Zinc; applied 3x per week after bath to effected areas (Body-Wide)
Cipro 500mg, 2 times a day - Only use when treating bladder or other infections
Prilosec, 1x a day during esophageal spasms very painful, feels like a heart attach
Medicine Allergies
All Antibiotics except Cipro 500mg - Only use when treating infections
Aspirin
Morphine
All Sulfa Drugs
All Cain class drugs except Lydocain, and now that does not work
X-ray Dyes/Iodine
Most over-the counter drugs including vitamins and minerals supplements
All herbal treatments
Food Allergies
All shell fish
Tropical fruits such as Papaya, Mangos, Coconut including tropical oils
Most herb teas and drinks
Cloves, Cinnamon, Soy
I avoid exotic mushrooms, nuts, or foods that I have not used before
Physical Disabilities
Severe body-wide Post-Traumatic-Syndrome Fibromyalgia with Progressive Nerve Loss and Damage and includes the following conditions:
Chronic body-wide pain in tissues, ligaments, muscles and nerves
Chronic nerve pain and nerve hits body-wide
Chronic limb shutters and sometimes body shutters (tremors and shaking)
Difficulty grabbing and holding objects due to nerve pain and loss of muscle strength in arms
Body-wide stiffness
Chronic PMS Cysts on right and possibly left ovaries causing high spike pain causing physical hyper-ventilation semi to total loss of consciousness
Chronic Dysmenaria, and endometriosis again (severe menstrual cramping, bleeding, high spike pain)
Painful ovulation (ranging from mild to high spike pain)
Irritable Bowel Syndrome with Constipation
Central Nervous System and Cognitive difficulties; limiting ability to concentrate, some word and sentence difficulties, difficult understanding moderate to complex instructions or issues. Best description is brain is out of sorts and lack of connectivity.
Short and long term memory disorders (what memory)
There is nerve damage in hands, arms, shoulders, legs, feet and other parts of the body. Now very much body wide. Numbness in fingers, hands, arms, legs, feet, face, abdomen
Poor circulation in legs, feet, hands, and fingers
Compromised Immune System
Chronic Vertigo
Muscle weakness in arms and legs during high nerve pain
Problems with any repetitive action such as: walking, using hands, finders, arms, legs, lifting, grabbing, holding, reaching, bending and standing
Chronic (mild to severe) Psoriasis body wide
Chronic and severe lack of stamina and energy
Insomnia
Blurred vision Vision is getting worse trying to focus
Chronic ringing ears very loud in quiet situations
Sub-normal body temperature in the 95.x-96.x degrees. If temperature goes above 96.x, I usually have a fever.
Other Disorders
Bursitis in both hips and both shoulders
Deep varicose veins in both legs not visible
Right kidney nonfunctioning, enlarged left kidney
Chronic bladder infections and incontinence
Chronic Acid Reflux Disease
Regular esophageal spasms very painful, feels like a heart attach
Chronic dislocating patella in both knees both knees are both very damaged and I can not walk much anymore
Crushed vertebrae just above pelvic bone, with muscle spasms on pelvic bone
Body-wide bone structure problems causing painful feet, very limited walking and standing, not able to kneel, bend, crawl or climb. Hip joint to lock up when going from sitting to standing. These problems have been going on since I was a small child
No longer driving because of medication, concentration, memory issues and sunlight and headlight sensitivity since 1997
Wear prescription glasses. Due to FMS vision becomes blurred often, and can not adjust well from close to far
Hypertension treated with medication, Lisinopril
Now I am having very pain in the abdomen area, reason unknown
Menopause has now started in 2003
RA is now in my hands, shoulders, hips, knees, ankles and feet
I use an electric wheelchair full time now..
I have dentures for my top teeth. which were pulled in May 2003. Due to my dry mouth (and eyes) I am not able to eat with the dentures. But dont fret; I can eat a lot of things still. I still have most of my bottom teeth
THIS IS MOMS (Nelouise Johnson) MEDICAL INFORMATION.
MEDICATIONS Dosage Treatment for:
Prednisone 10 MG (54/760) 1 Daily Steroid
Cytoxan 50 MG 503/50 2 1 am & 1 pm Steroid
Verapamil SR 240MG BLUE M/411 2 - 1 am & 1 pm Blood Pressure
Metformin 500 MG (Glucaphage) 2 1 am & 1 pm Blood Sugar
Traimterine (Dyazide) WHITE Cap Black strip 1 1 am Excess Fluid
Alprazolam 25 MG (Xanox 25MG GG) 1-2 Tabs every 8 hrs as needed Stress
KLOR Con M 10 Tab 1 Daily Potassium
Lipitor 10 MG 1 pm Cholesterol
MEDICATION ALLERGIES
Hydrochlorothiazide Get very sick
Sulfa Drugs Get very sick
CURRENT CONDITIONS
Diabetic Control with diet and medication
Hypertension Taking Verapamil
Pulmonary Fibrosis No active lung disease at this time (diagnosed by Dr. Coburn 2003)
Inflammation of the Lungs Being treated with steriods
Heart Murmur - needs surgery for valve replacement 1/20/04
PREVIOUS & CURRENT MEDICAL CONDITIONS
Rheumatic Fever at age 9 (1944)
Polio at age 8 (1943)
THE LORD HAS TOLD ME THAT MY ILLNESS IS MY MISSION, MY MISSION IS MY ILLNESS. He is so very faithful and so full of grace it is beyond understanding. Thank you Lord for staying be my side and given me the provisions we need everyday.
You have permission from me to read or to send this testimony to anyone, all I ask is that you do not change my testimony in any way. Thank you for taking time to read my testimony about Jesus Christ and my story.
God's Plan of Salvation
Becoming a Christian is the most important decision you can make. This decision does not only determine where you will spend eternity, but it will determine every aspect of your life.
All People Have Sinned Against God
The Bible says, "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23). The word sin means to miss a target by falling short of that target. Sin is the failure of a person to live the life which God has planned for him to live. Everyone has sinned, it is universal.
The Price of Sin Is High
The Bible says, "The wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." (Romans 6:23). The person who lives without God in this life will pay the awful price of an eternity separated from God. The Bible calls this place of separation hell. Hell was never meant to be the eternal home of mankind, but God could not allow rebellious people to enter into heaven. Heaven is the eternal dwelling of God's people, and it is a place where God lives in perfect harmony with His people.
God Loves us in Spite of Our Sin
The Bible says, "But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." (Romans 5:8).
Because of the righteousness of God, man must pay the penalty for sin, or someone who is acceptable to God must pay the penalty. The death of Jesus is the greatest demonstration of the love of God for sinners. It is a great love for someone to die in place of a loved one. But Jesus died for those in rebellion.
Repent, Turn Toward God, and Have Your Sins Completely Taken Away
The Bible says, "Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord;" (Acts 3:19). The word repent means to turn around and go in a different direction. It means a change of mind and life toward God. If you are willing to turn to God, then God will restore you to purity. Jesus described this experience as the "new birth." Your part is to confess your sin, and God's part is to forgive and restore.
By Grace You Receive His Free Gift (Eternal Life) Through Faith Which is Also from God
The Bible says, "For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:" (Ephesians 2:8). The word grace refers to the kindness and love of God in His willingness to forgive and save. Faith means to trust to a point of commitment. You cannot just believe in God. You must be willing to give your life to God's teachings and God's will. Salvation is God's gift if you will receive it with a commitment to turn and follow Jesus.
Confess Jesus and Believe That He Was Raised from the Dead by God
The Bible says, "That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved." (Romans 10:9). The word confess means to acknowledge that Jesus is Savior and Lord, to believe with all your heart that Jesus died on the cross for you and came out of the grave, believe that He is alive and will change your life as you follow and obey His teachings.
Pray (call upon) to the Lord and Be Saved:
The Bible says, "For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved." (Romans 10:13). Whoever means anyone can ask God for forgiveness of sin and turn from sin and follow Jesus.
If you believe all of the above then pray this simple prayer and mean it, and confess it to another person, and you will be saved
"Lord Jesus, I know I am a sinner and need Your forgiveness. I know You died on the cross for me. I now turn from my sins and ask You to forgive me. I invite You into my heart and life. I trust You as Savior and will follow You as Lord. Thank You for saving me. Amen."
If you prayed this prayer to receive Jesus Christ as your Savior, would you email me and tell me? I care about you. johnsonladies@peoplepc.com
This prayer of faith begins you on the greatest journey one can ever make. You need to contact a local Bible believing church and tell them of your decision. They will instruct you on baptism and church membership. Baptism is an important part of your Christian experience. For more info about what to do check into http://www.allaboutgod.com/
God's Plan Of Salvation
It is a fact that God loves you. (John 3:16)
It is a fact that you are a sinner. (Romans 3:23)
It is a fact that you are now dead in sin. (Romans 6:23)
It is a fact that Christ died for you. (Romans 5:6-8)
It is a fact that you can be saved by faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. (Acts 16:30,31)
It is a fact that you can be saved and know it. (I John 5:10-13)
It is a fact that you are now a child of God and you are to obey Him. (Acts 5:
Basics Of The Christian Life
Submit yourself to God daily. (Romans 6:13)
Read & Study God's Word. (I Peter 2:2)
Pray for others and self. (I John 3:22; 5:14-15)
Fellowship with Christians. (Hebrews 10:25)
Tell others about what Jesus can mean to them. (Philemon 6)
Daily Submission Guide
Father, I belong to You. I thank You for:
Loving me
Accepting me
Keeping me
Preparing a home for me
Giving Your Spirit to live in me.
This is a new day.
It is Your Gift to me. I thank You for it and pledge to be a good steward of this gift.
I present myself to You
as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable in Christ. I give You:
My mind for Your renewal
My will for your control
My body for Your use and
my emotions for your discipline
I will remember
What I know about You and live in those things today.
Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and I REST in Your control.
Loraine & (Mom) Nelouise Johnson
2716 Abrams Ave.Montrose, CO 81401-6332
(970) 240-0448
e-mail: johnsonladies@peoplepc.com
Joh 11:4 - But when Jesus heard {this,} He said, "This sickness is not to end in death, but for the glory of God, so that
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| blessed200 |
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dear loraine
Bless God gor you! I feel almost guilty that I have only manic deprssion in the face of all that you have suufered. Ican walk and move and work and study. Thank you for helping me be so grateful for what I usually take for granted.
Bless you
Your sister in Christ
Nicole
God's richest blessings
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| SerenityGr |
08-16-2004 @ 4:01 AM |
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Dear Lorraine,
Firstly the Lord moved and compelled me to write to you so much I joined this message board just to deliver to you, what is placed in my heart. Firstly we also have Ptsd and my son also has many medical conditions and I believe that a lot are also from Ptsd. What the Lord showed me was to come out of the world and to walk away from everyone and everything for a time. We gave up everything for Him. He gave us resprite in Him and it is a blessing to focus on Him, instead of the world and all our problems. As soon as we take our focus off of Him, we experience the most unbearable pain and suffering and are constantly sick. A lot of stress that we have encountered has been from the Govt. bullying experiences..and also a lot of different people.
What I am compelled to tell you and give you is what He gave me, the reminder is for you to focus on Isaiah 35, the holiness highway is the way He delivers people from illness and all sorts of things from, through, in and to Jesus...Also to remind you not only it He that is in us,or that He stands next to us, we are in Him, the scripture for you to focus on is John 14:14-21....and He shortened this for us into Our home is in His Heart and His Heart is in Our home John 14:20...and that is where we live and breath in Jesus...As we were reading about this and listening to praise and worship music, a brother on the other side of the world prayed that we would have this revelation simulataneously and we did and it was amazing to experience scripture in this way, to have it illuminated in our hearts and minds.
Also I wanted to let you know we are doing this without medication, for we can not tolerate medication due to sensitivity and so we are set free. We stopped following Man's ways and we followed the Lord's ways and He told us what to do, what we needed and how we can live in Him. This requires absolute faith, trust and courage to do this and it requires enormous amount of His Grace. He also reminded us about our diet and gave us the Hallelujah diet which you can find them online. Also we feel heaps better praising and worshipping Him and since we stopped watching tv, stopped reading articles that are not of Him, or are people's interpretation and opinion etc...we read His Word and study His bible, we feel heaps better. We also feel better taking our focus off the world's soap opera and have not watched the news for over a year coming up to 18months and we have no idea what is going on in the world, only what He wants us to know with His Church and His Children, and it feels better. He also delivered us out of the world's churches and delivered us into His Church....The Less we hang around people at present the better we feel and the more we hang out with our Lord the better we feel. However we also know that this is only for a season, where He is strengthening us in His love, hiding us and giving us a refuge. What happened as a result, we experienced a conversion process like Paul's except for the blinding of the eyes. What I am to tell you, take the focus off the medical situations, medications, what you are required to do, take your focus off of the world and other people and focus completely on Him and soak in His Love, word etc...do what He says and honestly you will feel better especially when you sit and delight in the awe and reverence of Him. Although an instant healing may not happen, it is a process and the more we follow this process, the more the old self goes and the new comes....The Lord has shown me what has been hurting us, acknowledge what was hidden to me and what was covered up; and acknowledged and validated what I have always known, that has been denied for a very long time. Also I was underdiagosed and so I never got the treatment I needed....and I can see now that this not being treated by medical professionals a huge blessing.
The Lord has also used our sensitivity and our hypervigilance in being able to turn away from sin, being able to hear and discern Him and follow Him, and to turn away from the world's ways and walk In Him, In His Strength, In His Holiness, Love, Grace and Mercy....Healing Comes in His Love and Holiness....He also started to pray when we came across this testimony and it is now in our heart and we will keep focus on you, and the outpouring of His love until we don't need to anymore...
Lorraine, The result of doing this has been we are experiencing the most amazing love relationship we have ever had and really getting to know our Lord, His word etc...he delivered to us our calling, our ministry, we were called into His body and received our adoption, and marriage experience. Now we are in preparation. The whole process is absolutely amazing, however it is also difficult and few will walk it when they are called. If you do, you will be blessed more than you can imagine, healing yes, deliverance yes....for He heals broken hearts and renews our minds and that is a huge amen. For the Lord is glorious and worthy and is beyond our words to describe the enormity of His beauty, we can only mouth the words Thankyou Lord, Amen
love and blessings in the Lord,
SerenityGrace
our Home is in His Heart and His heart is in our Home...John 14:20
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Hi Lorraine,
We came off after writing to you, only to find that the beautiful Lord revealed to us, to remind you that we are in the time of 2 Tim 3 and also what our names mean for His Children and Body of Christ for there is a message and a way out of the times of severe stress and trials. The Lord called my son David Samuel which means Beloved God has heard, this represents answered prayers for His Children and His Church. My name is Serenity Grace and that is the beautiful gift He is giving His Children to deal with different situations and experiences. Together they reveal a beautiful message, Beloved God has heard walk in my Serenity and Grace. Amen. I also kept on opening up the bible to Luke 11:9 - 13 and that is what He wants you to know of ask and keep on asking, seek and keep on seeking etc.... Also the shorten version of my above previous message is this elimante man's ways, replenish with God's ways and that is the way to release the old and awful and grab hold of the new and do all this in His Holy Spirit. The focus of this situation has gone from my heart along with the burden, feeling of serenity and grace and a release and that is a thankyou Lord, for answering our prayers and thankyou Lord for moving into Lorraine's situation and and moving me to speak and write out to her. Lorraine, watch how this path unfolds and I will give to you what He gave to me, the end verses of Psalm 18 and Psalm 19. Watch now the beauty of the Lord, for the unfolding process, it is like a rose that unfolds slowly and gently. The Bridegroom is coming.
love and blessings in the Lord Serenity Grace
Our home is in His Heart and His Heart is in our Home...John 14:20
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| jesus2005 |
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whatt sup family .first i like 2 give god his props for his grace an life an love an spirit.the body of jesus was 7-27 1975 reason i said that is god said that his body would never decay.so he's a leo .tha devil olny had 1000 years to roam da earth.(it's 2004)time is up satan!!!!!!!!since da 1600 a.d we have been opressed and slandered.well good news 400years is over as of 2000.u can get confirmation from da genesis..is john da baptist kerry is here maken da way 4 jesus???????good ? huh yes awnser is yes.in da jude warns us of godless men.i'll holla at u later
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| okiegirl43 |
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loraine,
I am new to this site but was moved by your testimony so much. It is sometimes hard to understand why so many bad things happen in our lives, but I stand with you in knowing that God knows all and sees our hearts in every area and struggle we go through. I am 43 yrs. old and have suffered alot of trauma as a child and I am now dealing with a host of health problems{believe me a lot}that require a full list of medications such as yourself. I also wear oxygen 24/7 and rarely leave home anymore. What I do know is, Satan must really want to keep us quiet because we have awesome things to tell about what God has done and how we have continued to pursue His face in all things. Don't give up! Keep fighting! I will be praying for you! And please fellow believers, keep me in your prayers. I am believing for a miracle!
In His Love
okiegirl43
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