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"Why Me"?
THE TESTIMONY OF SADBOY
Streetlife it's the only life I know, "who would have thought I could ever let it go." Believe it or not I still love that life, I always did, and I think I always will... Although I don't remember being all that happy in the past, If I had the chance to relive my life, "I wouldn't change a thing!"
Your probably thinking, If I loved my life the way it was, then why did I change it??? The truth is, "I never planned on changing my life; But my life decided to change on me!"
I confess to being a heavy beer drinker (alcoholic) and a drug user. Like I said before "I loved it, and I still do". But something happened to me that changed my life forever!!!
Most people won't understand my story, but I do. I've been told I was having drug induced haullucinations. You see I used the same drug for close to 12 yrs. and never seen as much as a blurr or a shadow. Why now? Why did I see scary demonic things that caused me to tremble in fear, and let me emphasize the word "tremble in fear"... The scary thing about it was I stopped using drugs and the constant appearance of demons never left, I was overwelmed with it.
All I know is, the devil came in like a flood, and my mom couldn't help me, my dad couldn't help me, "but deep in my gut I knew, If I could just get the Lord to hear me, by any means necessary, I would make it through... I cried out to God, Out loud, I didn't care who heard me or what they thought of me, I just repented begged for a hedge of protection and for peace of mind. It wasn't easy, Believe me" I was tormented non stop, day and night, by demons, it didn't matter where I went I seen them attacking me.
I can honestly say that the torment I endured was too much for me to handle, if it would have lasted a little bit longer I think I would be living in a mental institution or worse...
So you see, "I had no choice, but to humble myself to the Lord, and turn my back on my sinful lifestyle that I was use to." Then and only then, did I find spiritual freedom!" I can honestly say, for the first time in my life, I was a dedicated born again christian dead to sin, and I was proud of my new found salvation.
Talking about what changed me should be embarrasing for me because I use to be a Tuff Guy, who wasn't affraid of anyone!" That was the old me, Being Chingon` (tuff) on the streets doesn't mean anything when your fighting something "spiritual"
For we wrestle not against and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against rulers of darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places...
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