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08-20-2002 @ 9:02 AM |
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My name is Jacqueline and I'm now 17 years old
I too was sexually abused for many years of my life, most of it I managed to bury deep inside myself, thinking that it was my fault and I deserved it. I struggled with accepting love, because I had been told my whole life that I was useless and so I believed it.
I hated people touching me, even just holding my hand or hugging me.. I was scared of there intentions, not knowing what was expected of me.
I was alone for so long until one day...the day I found love..pure love..a love that didn't involve getting into my pants ..a love that involved loving me as a person, for who I was and not for who I was making myself out to be-that strong person always able to cope.
I came broken and torn with nothing to offer but a broken body, broken life and a mind full of painful memories, that haunted each second of each day..
I came to Jesus and he took me in his arms and loved with pure love, the love can only be found in the arms of God, the love that is unconditional and everlasting...Gods love
He showed me that me that he had been there, from the day I was conceived watching over me.. he was beside me all the carrying me through those sleepless nights, terrified that my bedroom door would open revealing another nightmare
For the first time I felt pure love, it didn't even seem real at first and I struggled to grasp at the fact that I could be loved...me..
God showed that he never would of created me in the first place if he didn't know that I was going to come out of this stronger than I went in..and know I'm ready to face the world and be what God wants me to be, what he created me to be...
2 years ago I was able to stop my sister from being sexually abused and living the nightmare that I lived.. I was able to the signs before in become intense...I thank my father for my abuse...I was able to save my sister.. she will be 10 in September..
To all you out there who are going through what I went through, you are not alone ,and you have done nothing wrong. God will take control and help you, if you only ask him to
God bless you all..
Rat..
love rat
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| Amareno |
08-20-2002 @ 9:38 AM |
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Psalm 104:1
Bless the Lord, O my soul. O Lord my God, thou art very great; thou art clothed with honour and majesty.
Psalm 57:3
He sends from heaven and saves me, rebuking those who hotly pursue me; Selah God sends his love and his faithfulness.
Psalm 66:20
Praise be to God, who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!
Psalm 86:15
But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
Yours In The Vineyard, Amareno
"As the deer panteth after the waterbrooks, so panteth my soul after thee oh Lord" (Psalm 42:1)
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| crose |
08-20-2002 @ 1:26 PM |
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Jacqueline,
If I had ten thousand tongues I couldn't express my joy for you right now. Hallelujah.
Rose
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Philippians 4:13
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| MattRyan |
09-06-2002 @ 10:34 AM |
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quote:
My name is Jacqueline and I'm now 17 years old
I too was sexually abused for many years of my life, most of it I managed to bury deep inside myself, thinking that it was my fault and I deserved it. I struggled with accepting love, because I had been told my whole life that I was useless and so I believed it.
I hated people touching me, even just holding my hand or hugging me.. I was scared of there intentions, not knowing what was expected of me.
I was alone for so long until one day...the day I found love..pure love..a love that didn't involve getting into my pants ..a love that involved loving me as a person, for who I was and not for who I was making myself out to be-that strong person always able to cope.
I came broken and torn with nothing to offer but a broken body, broken life and a mind full of painful memories, that haunted each second of each day..
I came to Jesus and he took me in his arms and loved with pure love, the love can only be found in the arms of God, the love that is unconditional and everlasting...Gods love
He showed me that me that he had been there, from the day I was conceived watching over me.. he was beside me all the carrying me through those sleepless nights, terrified that my bedroom door would open revealing another nightmare
For the first time I felt pure love, it didn't even seem real at first and I struggled to grasp at the fact that I could be loved...me..
God showed that he never would of created me in the first place if he didn't know that I was going to come out of this stronger than I went in..and know I'm ready to face the world and be what God wants me to be, what he created me to be...
2 years ago I was able to stop my sister from being sexually abused and living the nightmare that I lived.. I was able to the signs before in become intense...I thank my father for my abuse...I was able to save my sister.. she will be 10 in September..
To all you out there who are going through what I went through, you are not alone ,and you have done nothing wrong. God will take control and help you, if you only ask him to
God bless you all..
Rat..
love rat
By Grace!
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| MattRyan |
09-06-2002 @ 10:37 AM |
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Woops...
Jacqueline... that is very encouraging.. I believe that you can take something that the devil meant for your harm and turn it around for good. I have a similar story of being sexually abused in my childhood years and it has not been an easy road but God is faithful. I am a 26 yr old male who was abused by a man in my church. I grew up feeling inadequate and insecure and a pile of other issues. The devil had a life of Homosexuality planned for my life and it has taken my whole being not to become just that. God will take us all the way through if we are obedient and allow him to work in us.
God Bless You!
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My name is Jacqueline and I'm now 17 years old
I too was sexually abused for many years of my life, most of it I managed to bury deep inside myself, thinking that it was my fault and I deserved it. I struggled with accepting love, because I had been told my whole life that I was useless and so I believed it.
I hated people touching me, even just holding my hand or hugging me.. I was scared of there intentions, not knowing what was expected of me.
I was alone for so long until one day...the day I found love..pure love..a love that didn't involve getting into my pants ..a love that involved loving me as a person, for who I was and not for who I was making myself out to be-that strong person always able to cope.
I came broken and torn with nothing to offer but a broken body, broken life and a mind full of painful memories, that haunted each second of each day..
I came to Jesus and he took me in his arms and loved with pure love, the love can only be found in the arms of God, the love that is unconditional and everlasting...Gods love
He showed me that me that he had been there, from the day I was conceived watching over me.. he was beside me all the carrying me through those sleepless nights, terrified that my bedroom door would open revealing another nightmare
For the first time I felt pure love, it didn't even seem real at first and I struggled to grasp at the fact that I could be loved...me..
God showed that he never would of created me in the first place if he didn't know that I was going to come out of this stronger than I went in..and know I'm ready to face the world and be what God wants me to be, what he created me to be...
2 years ago I was able to stop my sister from being sexually abused and living the nightmare that I lived.. I was able to the signs before in become intense...I thank my father for my abuse...I was able to save my sister.. she will be 10 in September..
To all you out there who are going through what I went through, you are not alone ,and you have done nothing wrong. God will take control and help you, if you only ask him to
God bless you all..
Rat..
love rat
By Grace!
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| Beloved4 |
09-11-2002 @ 2:38 PM |
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Hi hon,
My name is darlene and I too am a survivor. I am 37. If you need to talk/ chat...
my email is studio_writer@yahoo.com.
But I am in the middle of a move this week and may check my email only every day or so. Feel free to email questions etc you might have. I might have some perpective that could help. BUT then again I might have to say I dunno too..
 ..... you are loved by our ABBA, our Lord Jesus, our Comforter the Holy Spirit and by a multitude of christians.
Just one thing the facts and the truth are two totally diffrent things. You can trust the truth from God... In John Jesus made alot of references to God's perpective of truth and the reality of truth...
but in everyday life. That panic can bubble to your throat and that dread of others can chill your blood...
BUT the truth of the matter is that Jesus has you in His hand and you are greatly blessed.
I know you feel responsible and guilty for surviving BUT one of God's names is EL ROI 'God sees' .. It is use in reference to Hagar and Ishmael in the desert. God sees, knows and undertsands even when 90% of the others don't...
Keep in touch with much love and hope for you darlene
Eph 5:1 "Be ye therefore imitators of God..."
...just a thought...
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